Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awarenss...

In October 1988, President Reagan proclaimed October to be National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. Since then, October 15th has become Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. Many people have worked hard to keep this remembrance going. To be honest, I didn't even know about this day until after my sweet Mollie blessed our lives.

Not a day goes by when I don't think of her a little. So, I consider this a day as a day to reflect and remember her short life as well as to reach out to others who have had a similar loss. I could never imagine I would be in a place to encourage and comfort others but the Lord has brought healing to me and many people into my life whom I can comfort.

As a good friend often reminds me I 'have a license to comfort others. It isn't a license I want or would ever ask for, but it's a license non the less.'

As painful as my journey has been, I wouldn't trade the lessons for anything. My sweet little girl blessed me and through her life and death, I can bless others. She will never be forgotten for she is always in my heart. I can remember her with gladness and love and the hope of seeing her again one day when the Lord takes me home.

That time of year again...

I'm in that season again, where my heart is just a little more raw and I find it hard to breathe sometimes. Even with eight years passing, it still feels like someone is standing on my chest! (another VGM mom made that statement last year and I think it is the most descriptive thing I've heard) Tomorrow will be 8 years since I held sweet Mollie as she took her last breath.

My focus is on being thankful for the time I had with my sweet Miss Mollie. I could still be angry and hurt and questioning, but I choose to be thankful and blessed and happy.  There are things I will never experience with her, and that makes me sad, but I know that soon I will experience eternity with her and that gives me joy!

The only picture I have of her looking at me!


And God, in His faithfulness, has given me many opportunities to encourage and support others. I can live 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."

I have a sweet friend who blesses me with an angel ornament every year in memory of Mollie. This is a picture of them all! 

Holding on to my ever present help, the Lord, and thanking Him for His comfort, grace, and mercy!